I.need.to.smile.

Today is one of the days I like to call my "shit" days.
I feel like shit, smell like shit, and look like shit.
Okayyyy maybe that's a little exaggerated
but, nonetheless... I feel like.... yuck.
..
Usually, I can understand my emotions.
But today, They are tangled up in an confusing, permanent ... knot.
And no matter how hard I try... I can't untangle the knot.
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Right now,..
I want to cry to ease the pain, but no tears are coming out.
I want to figure out what exactly is this "Pain" that's lingering on my mind, because this "pain" is stabbing my heart over and over again.
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